I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good

[alt_hydra]

How is everyone feeling? We're supposed to be happy, I suppose.

I'm happy about some things, but not about others. I'm happy that the bomb in the school didn't explode. And that members of my family weren't killed. Yet I'm a rather sick at the thought of how many people who weren't involved were killed. And then there's those strange things they've said about what was done to the airport. It can't have been good.

When I was little and first heard the word "airport," I thought it was a place for ships that carried air in their cargo.

I keep thinking about odd memories like that and getting distracted. In Potions yesterday, I nearly exploded our dizziness draught by stirring in billywig eyes instead of black beetle eyes. If Remy hadn't shouted at me just as I was about to add them, we would have probably both slept in hospital wing last night. And this morning, I tried to re-read my Arithmancy notes and could barely follow them, which I suppose means I wasn't concentrating during lessons. At least I'm not the only one. I've seen a lot of people who look as if they're having trouble concentrating.

And did anyone see that Mummy said some rather unkind things to Madam Umbridge on the journals? It made me a little pleased, just for a second, but then I remembered that she doesn't really deserve that - even if she does hate kittens. And you know, if Mr Yaxley is injured that probably means that Mummy is in charge of MLE, which I'm sure she doesn't like one bit. She doesn't like having to manage people and mind little details, so it's probably driving her mental. That pleases me a little, too.

That's all. I just felt like talking to all of you.

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[alt_ron]

Yeah.

I've mostly been trying not to think about any of it. And then thinking about it all the time, anyway. It's been- not good in our room with Finnigan because he's got family in the middle of it. And I guess he heard his cousin got killed, which, y'know, even as much as I don't like Finnigan, I didn't wish he'd have that happen. And so, anywiz, he's been making himself mental, trying to get every piece of news there is about what's happening.

And, well. I guess the rest of us haven't been much better. It's hard to sleep when all that's happening.

So your mum's head of MLE now?

[alt_hydra]

I know what you mean. It seems like the more I try not to think about it, the more it slips in. I suppose that's why I decided to write here, so I could just get it out.

I'm sorry to hear that about Finnigan. But surely even he knows that the wireless and the news aren't all that reliable?

She's head of MLE for now, but probably not for good, if she can help it.

[alt_ron]

Yeah, I think that's why Finnigan's trying to listen to all the reports and read everything the Prophet says and all the stuff that people are writing in the journals because maybe you can tell what they're lying about from the way they say stuff or from the stuff that's totally different in one report from the rest.

The thing about it is, you can't just say all of it's rubbish, because some of it is true or the true part is in there underneath a load of bollocks meant to make it sound as if the people over there all deserve to be murdered.

And what you said about your mum. Ha. Probably not for good, if she can help it.

Sorry, but that has two completely different meanings, and I think the second one's as true as the way you meant it.

Don't get cross. Only, your mum as head of MLE is a really scary thing. Not good at all. For the rest of us, I mean.

[alt_hydra]

Yes, it isn't all rubbish, but it's all so confusing that one never knows what to believe. And I don't think that it's even safe to say that MLE and the Ministry always lie, because sometimes they probably tell the truth. And sometimes what they say is probably what they think is the truth, if you see what I mean.

I know that it has two different meanings. She won't like being head of MLE, so I'm hoping that she isn't for long. The longer she is, the scarier it gets.

[alt_ron]

Yeah. You're right. So mostly I don't try to sort it out. I mean, Finnigan can listen to it all if he wants, but it would just twist my brains round if I tried to figure out what's really what.

Say. Have you written your essay for Dolohov yet? I mean, we've got the same assignment, don't we? I can't decide which of the charms to pick. I mean there are a few boring ones I've marked off the list, but there are still too many really interesting ones left. And I'm not daft enough to want to write about all of them. Only, it usually matters which ones we do pick with him. I mean, he'll want us to go on working with them, yeah? And answering questions about them. And maybe he'll tell us to learn those, so.

Yeah, I'm probably thinking way too much about this. I mean, it's only homework, right? And he's not even here to collect it.

[alt_pansy]

I'm sure you'll do just fine. I thought the study session tonight went really well, don't you?

[alt_ron]

Yeah, it was great, actually.

Only, it didn't help me narrow down the spells for the essay, it just made me think a bunch more of them are dead interesting.

And. Can I just say? That Vox Similo spell just gets more hilarious every time I see someone do it! I totally want to do it for the play audition. Someone who can sing properly could make me do a duet with them. We'd have everyone dying!!