I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good - Private Message to Justin

[alt_hydra]

I've tried to carry on as usual, all day, but I can't stop thinking about something Dora wrote to me last night.

I asked her about something I heard her say to Mr Ponds - she said that I reminded her of her mother, my Auntie Andromeda. I rather liked the idea, because Andromeda married a muggleborn, and she didn't do as her family wanted, and I suppose I was thinking about you and me, you see.

She said yes, she had a thought about my resemblance to her mother.

I asked her - I asked, but you didn't just think it, right? You must have said it out loud.

And she said that she hadn't meant to say anything about it, but she supposed she must have.

But...if someone doesn't want to say something out loud, they won't. Not unless they're being forced to, or they can't help themselves, like you can't help but gasp when you stumble on the ice, or groan when you drop your fork on the floor.

Or do you ever say things out loud without meaning to, and without even realising it?

Comments

[alt_justin]

Hullo,

I'm in the middle of this revising but I have a moment and saw you'd written.

I can see how you would think of us. I say, it's rather a nice thought, isn't it?

But.... Well, see here, love, one does sometimes speak out loud when one isn't thinking, but...doesn't one usually realise it when it happens?

Unless your cousin is more distracted than the average person, what? Which she well might have been, with all of us and her little girl and such.

-Justin

[alt_hydra]

I want to think that you're right, that she's just a distracted sort of person, but I just keep thinking back to Remy, and what he said about me and what I was doing to him.

I'm probably just over-reacting, aren't I?

From,
Hydra

[alt_justin]

I suppose that depends, what? Do you think you're over-reacting to hearing your cousin Dora or over-reacting to what your cousin Remy said, or over-reacting to what it might mean? Or something else altogether?

-J

[alt_hydra]

I don't really know.

I'd better go to bed. I'm awfully tired.

From,
Hydra

[alt_justin]

Don't be cross with me. I'm not taking the mickey. I mean to say, it's possible Remy's right. But if he is, you'll learn to control it and you can decide not to use it at all. And if he's wrong then there's nothing to worry about (but learning those meditations and such would not be a loss, in either case). It's all right.

You said to me once that other people can't make one change, deep down. This doesn't have to change you, love.

Would you like to meet?

-J

[alt_hydra]

No thank you, I really am very tired. I'm not cross. I just want to go to sleep, if it's all right.

I'll see you tomorrow.

From,
Hydra

[alt_justin]

Of course.

Only I am sorry if I've upset you. I

I suppose everyone is rather tense at present.

Sweet dreams.

-J