alt_hydra: (in years and)
(I realise you're busy, so don't read this until time allows - only, I know that you won't.)

The evening Prophet came an hour or so ago. I assume that the news is accurate and my cousin and her husband's shop was raided last night? I've been to that shop, you know. On more than a few occasions. I even saw the dog, once. It just seemed like an ordinary dog.

I ought to have noticed something. I keep trying to think if there's anything I noticed and dismissed, because she was rather kind to me, Dora. And Mummy was the one who brought me for my first visit so I thought if Mummy was alright with me visiting the shop, then there was no reason not to enjoy myself. Dora just didn't seem like the sort... well, I suppose you know what I mean, since your family fostered her.

Only I keep thinking about what happened with Draco, too, and how I never expected that, but then again no one else did, either. You're right, you can't let your guard down with anyone. And not even if you have legilimency to rely on. You can only be prepared, at all times, for anything.
alt_hydra: (too much to say)
Hullo.

I'm not going to ask if you're alright, and I'm not going to tell you it will be alright.

This is the worst thing that's ever happened to you, and it's happened less than a week after the other worst thing that's ever happened to you. This is the most helpless, terrified, and small that you have ever felt. All you thought you could withstand, all the tests you've gone through, none of it prepared you for this horrible weight.

If I were with you, I'd be able to feel it. I'd take some of it away, if I could, if it would help. I'm not the only one who would do that for you, either.

I love your parents. Uncle Lucius - well, not the way Pansy loves him, but he's been in my life since I can remember. And your mother is, in some ways, the only mother I've ever known. I don't want bad things to happen to them.

But when I joined the Order, I had to accept bad things. I knew that I might have to fight your parents, and mine, see them arrested, see them killed. Maybe even kill them myself. And I was ready - I am ready. But maybe you thought you were ready, too.

Bad things have been here all along, we've never been able to hide from them, and I don't think we can never really be ready for them, either... You must have felt so safe, with love like your parents'. They told you everything - the whole world - would be yours. I wish they had told you the truth.

The whole world can still be ours, but it won't come without a price. Just like your parents' love didn't come without a price. They would never accept the son they have now, if they knew him like I do. They wouldn't accept me. But that's not my fault, and it's not yours. They made their choices long ago, and you and I made different ones.

I know some people think I joined the Order for Justin. I didn't. I did it for me.

Don't worry about what the Order wants, and don't worry about what your parents want. What do you want for yourself, and what inside yourself do you hold most dearly?

Hold on to that. I promise that tomorrow, you'll still have it.
alt_hydra: (long before her time)
Is Draco with you lot, helping you look for Ron-the-snake?

Oh, and have you seen Teddy around?

Order Only

Friday, 6 June 2014 09:34
alt_hydra: (her age became)
I'm looking forward to your birthday party tonight, Draco. Daphne and Lizzie already put up some of the ornaments and decorations this morning. I think when she's finished we won't even recognise the common room.

Has anyone seen the articles that have come out in the papers and magazines this week? Some of them are are more serious in tone, and they discussed how the current generation of council members are bringing their children into the fold, and they profiled Harry, Draco, me, Teddy, and Pansy, and spoke of how impressive we are and what an asset we'll be to a "maturing Protectorate." And then there was some mention of the "newcomers" like Ron and Padma and Finnigan and some speculation on whether or not they will be able to keep up. The article made it sound as if we all already had the mark. So I guess the news sources are under the impression that you're doing well, Pansy, though I don't think they have any specifics on the challenge at all and are just speculating. And it's funny because they also described Harry, Draco, and Teddy as "old chums."

And some of the more gossipy magazines were going on and on about Draco finally being of age and how Harry will soon be, too, and they had photographs of Draco looking rather regal (though the caption said "smoldering"). They did mention Daphne but wondered if she would just be another schoolgirl fling, like her mother was for Raz. Oh, and they also said that with Raz being married now, and Barty Crouch getting up there in years, that Barty couldn't really carry on as the Protectorate's most eligible bachelor. So they named Draco as "the newest, freshest most eligible bachelor in the Protectorate" and had a list of things he loves in a woman.

Draco, did you know that you love a woman who wears designers fashions, keeps her hair in curls, speaks French, doesn't swear, and smells like evening primrose?

Well, I enjoyed reading something entertaining for a change.
alt_hydra: (her age became)
I saw Draco in the prefect's car this morning, but he was busy with Daphne so we couldn't speak. Not that we could have really talked about what happened while riding the train, anyway, but I have no idea what's happened and I'm sure others are confused, as well. I only saw him say that he's quitting, and all his reasons why, and then there were a load of private messages between people.

It was thoughtless of Ron and the others not to tell anyone what they were doing, or what their challenge was to begin with. I didn't even know what Ron and Pansy's challenges were, I only knew that Draco and I hadn't received any. I told that to somebody when we were at Tea appreciation, only I don't remember who.

I can see why Draco was cross, but I was surprised that he decided to quit. He isn't quitting, is he?
alt_hydra: (too much to say)
I've just seen Draco. He's going to bring Jack over to Justin... Well, that's not why I saw him, we've just had supper at Nanella's. It's really more duty than celebration, and no one lingers for long after the table is cleared.

I - I'm not sure how to say this, because for all I know, you may not want to talk to anyone at all. Thats for you to decide. But then again, you can't know who to talk to unless someone makes it clear that they're willing to listen. And thats what you did for me, after Justin and I broke up. Which seems so long ago and yet like it just happened, and I still don't know what I can say about it. What is there to say? We've made our decision and that's the end of it. But even though I didn't feel like talking, I appreciated it when you said that you'd listen, if I needed someone.

The thing is, Draco has been occluding around me for ages. I could feel it, at first, but now he's gotten better and I couldn't really tell, but I assumed that he was. For practice. I had no idea he was actually hiding something.

And today, even though he didn't really ask me to do anything, as soon as we were alone at St. James to get Jack, I could feel him drawing me in, intentionally, so I looked. And I saw.

If I was surprised, well, I can only imagine how you must have felt.

He didn't want to talk about it, but he thought you might need someone. He might be right, he might be wrong. I don't know. But here I am, if you do.
alt_hydra: (will hide us from the bitter storm)
I know we've been teaming up on this challenge, and I've been allowing you to lead the way, mostly. But the next time you come up with a grand idea to turn my life inside-out, how about you discuss it with me and Harry, rather than convincing Harry first, then having him present it to me in a way that makes it impossible for me to say no.

I realise that the fake girlfriend approach has worked well for you, but that doesn't mean everyone else wants or needs to follow suit.
alt_hydra: (too much to say)
So. As awkward as it is to request directly, I think you will have to specifically and pointedly invite me to Tea Appreciation, Harry, if I'm going to be able to attend.

Having Draco do it won't be enough. Mummy won't even let me see Auntie Narcissa.

You could write her an Owl, or just mention in publicly in the journals somewhere, or even just show up at St. James on the day of. It doesn't really matter. If it's your idea she won't question it.

I'm not sure why I'm so worried about attending, only one day soon Mrs Longbottom will remember that I have access to Auror Lestrange's hair and will want to pull me aside for a chat, I'm sure.

Speaking of Auror Lestrange, Mummy's taking me to MLE with her today. I don't know what I'll see, but I hope that it doesn't involve her killing someone.
alt_hydra: (Default)
Hi Harry,

I just wanted to let you know that a new club, Tea Appreciation, is meeting tomorrow at Lazlo's of London, in Camden. Probably around 3:00. Don't worry, I haven't made you president or anything, but if you want out of Buckingham, you're welcome to join us. It will be Remy and Justin and me for sure, and Sally Anne and Luna, and maybe Ron and Neville. I also asked Draco and Pansy, but they haven't gotten back to me yet.

I think Draco feels uncomfortable about coming to the shop because it's owned by our cousin, Dora Ponds. She's a halfblood, and her parents were traitors, so Draco doesn't really know her at all. I've been getting to know her better, though. Her family is very polite, and very loyal to the Protectorate.

I hope your summer has been going well. Have you enjoyed coming to the clubs and being a YPL counsellor? I know that the clubs weren't really your idea, after all, so I hope it hasn't been burdensome. I know that it's been nice for me, to have a good reason to socialise away from St. James. Mummy hasn't remarked on it much so far, she's so busy with her investigations, you know. But I keep waiting for her to suddenly snap to attention and put a stop to it...That's how it usually goes, with her.

Let me know if you can make it tomorrow.

From,
Hydra
alt_hydra: (and bending down beside the glowing bars)
Hello,

I've been talking with Justin and Remy about having a Tea Appreciation club, and they both thought it was a good idea. And then I thought that Lazlo's of London would be a good spot for a first meeting. It's more of a shop than a cafe, but it's cosy, and really, I wanted to invite the two of you because Dora Ponds, the proprietor, is Draco's cousin, and mine.

Draco, I know you don't know her very well, but she's very kind (and so is her husband, Mr Ponds), and she's a metamorphmagus, which is fascinating, and her little daughter has the ability, too. I don't think you've really properly met Bea, have you? I'm sure that she'd be happy to meet another cousin.

I was planning to invite Harry, too, since the whole point of the clubs is to keep him busy. And Pansy, I think Sally Anne would be interested in coming too, if the Strettons will give her permission.

We'll be going there tomorrow at three. Do you think you would like to come?

From,
Hydra
alt_hydra: (of your changing face)
I went to Draco's French speaking club today and I don't think I've learnt very much yet, except for Oui, s'il vous plaît and Non, merci. But Draco says you don't have to speak all that much to make a good impression. I hope that's right. I also found out that almost everyone at Durmstrang speaks German, even if they're not from Germany, so Remy sent away for a book on that and we've been looking over it together a little bit. So far I've memorised Hallo, Guten morgen, and Guten tag.

For some reason Deutsch seems much more familiar than French.

And I was curious because Teddy Nott was reading a book on parseltongue when he was in the commonroom. He let me look at it. It was extremely confusing, though, because it doesn't have words or even an alphabet, it's really just noises more than anything. The person who wrote the book said that for a long time it was thought that the parseltongue was hereditary and couldn't be learned, only imitated. But he also said that it's an intuitive language and if someone can properly visualise themselves as a serpent, they can penetrate the mysteries of the tongue. Then he listed different exercises for visualising yourself as a serpent, such as moving along on your belly, and sleeping in dark corners while coiled in on yourself, and eating dead mice.

So, I don't think I will be trying out parseltongue. Not now, anyway.

Twee

Tuesday, 25 January 2011 20:04
alt_hydra: (among a crowd of stars)
Well I've been practising for the play a lot, even though I only have a few lines, I want to make them good.
Not very many second years got parts with lines, so I feel that I've been given an important job.
It's a little strange to be in a play that has characters based on so many people I know, including my parents.
It doesn't really feel real, which I guess it isn't, it's make-believe.
Still, it's based on real history, and the valor of all the people who helped to topple the Ministry, and the wickedness of some people who tried to prevent it, like Dumbledore.
Draco, you must be ever so excited to be understudying for Dumbledore, he's the best villain in the whole play!
Only I don't understand what that boy Corner from Ravenclaw was doing today.
I thought he said that plays were for girls, but then when I saw him at dinner his hair was curly and long, and I think his eyelashes were, too.
Does that mean he decided to join the play after all, as an understudy, maybe?
I liked the glitter in his hair, though.
I'd like to learn a charm like that, one that lasts all day.
Every time I've made my hair glittery it's gone in less than an hour.
alt_hydra: (with love false or true)
Dear Uncle Raz,

Do you know about the lists that were passed around this week?
They were made by someone in the third year and the Head Boy wrote about them yesterday.
The lists have different categories, like "Most Fit" and "Most Talented" and "Mousiest" and "Biggest Mudblood Lover," and under every category there are five people listed and you're supposed to vote for one of them.
I asked Draco about the lists yesterday because I was curious, but he said if I just waited until third year I would probably see them because they would surface again, like a new tradition.
So because of that didn't see the lists until this morning, because Jeremy had a copy at breakfast.
He's good at getting his hands on stuff like that.
Now I'm worried, though, that someone in the second year might decide to copy the lists and pass them around for the second years.
And even if that doesn't happen, I'm worried about it happening next year, when I'm a third.
I just don't know what I'll do if my name is under "Most Squibbish," or "Biggest Crybaby."
Or what if there are whole new categories by then, like "Most Disloyal," or "Weakest Character"?
I just don't know what I would do, and I know that Mummy would be so angry and disappointed.
Can we make it a new school rule that lists aren't allowed anymore?

From,
Hydra
alt_hydra: (how many loved your moments)
Dear Lord,

I'm so sorry that I haven't written to You in some time.
I was very busy with some obligations, such as visiting friends and also my family's holiday to the seaside.
I had a very nice time, and Mother sai it was remarkable to see how rich and wonderous life is in even the far reaches of Your Kingdom.
I've been thinking about You, though, and the lovely time how we spent the last afternoon that we had tea at Buckingham.

I might have told You before, but I really think the room that You take tea in is just lovely, the chairs are so comfortable, and those scones that Your elves serve are the best that I've ever tasted.
A friend of mine said that they must be made with real butter and cream.
But besides the scones I mostly like what we talk about.
I was worried that You might be cross with me for what I said about Mother, but she really does confuse me some of the time, especially with the way that she speaks of me to other people and the way that she speaks when we're alone.
I really did think she was happy about my meetings with You, and even on our trip I heard her telling the locals about it, almost boasting.
But in private she doesn't seem quite as happy about it.

Thank You so much for listening, I know that You have so much more important things to think about than what is going on with a school girl like me.
And thank You for not laughing when I told You how I felt about Tom.
He didn't laugh, either, when I told him, and I appreciated it very much.
Are You ?
Sometimes I miss him.
I don't know how to tell anyone else that without them thinking that I'm a nutter.

School will start soon, and I feel ready, I think.
I might have new friends, and if not, there's always Harry and Draco and Pansy.
And Tevis, too.
I wish there were a way to keep up our tea times together.
Maybe if You still want to have one sometime, You could come to the school, because they'll probably let You do what You want there, I think.
They already let Uncle Lucius do what he wants, so of course they'll let You.
There's more I'd like to talk about someday, if we can.
It's probably silly, but when we were at the cottage I just wondered some things, like if You ever took holidays, and if so where, and what sort of things You liked to do when You were my age.
I know You're so busy and probably don't think about those days any more, ever.
It's just that if You ever wanted to, You could.
With me, I mean.

From,
Hydra
alt_hydra: (but 1 man loved the pilgrim soul in you)
Dear Sir,

I hope that it's alright that I've chosen to write You here instead of using an owl.
I've been thinking for days of what I need to tell You and I wrote it down on a piece of parchment first so that I won't miss anything or ramble about something that might not be interesting or important.
First, You wanted to know what I told Tom about You and the Protectorate, and I already told You all that I could remember.
And it was true, I really did go on an awful lot to him about New London and how wonderful it is, and all of the statues of You, and how the air is cleaner now and wizard-kind is much safer now that muggles are strictly controlled.
Tom was very happy about that.
But what I didn't tell You was that he was very happy with everything...except he didn't like that there were muggles still around at all.
I know that I should have told You that face to face, but it was such a difficult thing to say, I hope You understand.
I find it much easier to write down difficult things.
What Tom said was that the muggle and mudblood filth should be stamped out of England, and especially from Hogwarts, and that he thought You would have taken care of them by now, and that he hoped You hadn't turned soft.
He said that no one can control filth, they can only get rid of it, the way they would get rid of any other rubbish.
That's what he said, but I didn't agree with him and I told him that I thought You had done everything just right because it made the most amount of people happy.
It was so confusing sometimes, though, because he seemed to know so much about You, even though he was from ages and ages ago.
The way he spoke of You, it was almost as if he saw himself as Your Mothe parent.
Sometimes what he said about You made me so upset that I would be cross with him, and I would refuse to speak to Him for a while.
I even tried to flush him down a loo one time.
But then I decided that maybe he didn't mean to be insulting, because Hogwarts really did mean so much to him, he was always asking me about my teachers and classes, and wanted to hear all about my classmates, and also about Draco and Harry.
Especially Harry.
But he seemed to remember everything about the school, and knew ever so much more about its secret passages and hidden nooks than I ever could.
That's why I let him come over me, that first time.
He had shown me what Hogwarts looked like when he was a student, and I wanted to show him what it looked like now, when I was a student.
And then, when he starting taking me over more often, I wouldn't know that he was doing it until something big happened, like when Dennis fell over like a piece of stone, or when Tully was died.
He was so very powerful, my Lord, and he wasn't even a man yet.
Do you think that Harry really killed him?
It didn't seem like anything in the whole wide world could, but if there were one thing that could, it would make sense that it was Your son.

I didn't tell Mummy what Tom said about You.
I'm sure that she would punish me dreadfully for saying such evil words, even if they weren't my own.
She's already so unhappy with me for keeping secrets, even though I swore to her that I wasn't trying to.
Did You say something to her about it?
I don't want to preso presume but she seemed to act differently after our last meeting, like she was leaving it all to You now and would stop questioning.
Thank you

I'm also wanted to write so that I could tell You that I very much apologise for being so jumpy the first few times we had tea.
Only I didn't know what to expect, and I thought that it must surely mean that I was in trouble.
But you were just
It was just like

But now I would just very much like to serve You and please You, so if we have tea again sometime before I go back to Hogwarts, I would like that.

From,
Hydra

Twelve

Friday, 9 July 2010 08:35
alt_hydra: (and bending down beside glowing bars)
Tomorrow we're to have a birthday luncheon here at Saint James Palace and family and friends of family are invited.
Which I think means that the only people close to my own age will be Harry, Draco, and maybe Pansy, but that's fine because I know them best.
And then after the birthday luncheon I'm to have tea at Buckingham Palace with the Lord Protector.
He wrote me an owl personally, and it didn't say very much but his handwriting was very nice.
It reminded
I really don't know why he would want to sit down to tea with me, maybe it's something he does with some children when they turn twelve?
But because of my appointment with the Lord Protector Mummy's taking me to the shops today for a whole new wardrobe and to have my hair done!
I haven't been to the shops since last year before school started, and that was just for regular school robes and cauldrons and things.
I hope that I can find some shoes with bows on them, I think they'd look ever so fetching, especially if I could find robes with the same kinds of bows.
And I hope we have time to go to Flourish and Blotts or another book shop, because Daddy gave me money to buy the last two Melinda March books.
They came out while we were at school but I didn't have the money for them back then, and we weren't getting packages for a long time anyway.
Melinda March is the heroine and everyone (including herself) thinks she is a half-blood with disgraced parents but really she's a pure-blood, and no one knows because the midwife was vengeful and she changed the records to alter the names of her birth parents.
In the last book, Melinda was being fostered by her actual BIRTH parents, and only the midwife knows the truth and her foster parents don't treat her very kindly, unfortunately.
I can't wait to see if Melinda figured out that she's a pure-blood witch, and what her family will say when they realise she's the daughter they always wanted, even though they've been treating her like she's a speck of dust for all the time she's been with them.
They are really very good books.
alt_hydra: (and bending down beside glowing bars)
I've been back at home for a few days now.
My home in New London not Le'Strange Hill, since Mummy has had such an awful lot of work to do.
Rigel looks different from when I saw him last, and I don't think he remembers me at all, he keeps biting me.
Draco had a birthday party and it was utterly fun, even though his birthday was actually a few weeks ago, he wanted to wait until we were out of school to celebrate.
Father and Uncle Razzer are here and I think they've been celebrating all night, not because of Draco's birthday but because Sirius Black was captured.
Now that Sirius Black is caught, I wonder what will happen to him?
And I was wondering, if he says that he's sorry and that he didn't mean it, could he maybe be forgiven?
alt_hydra: (with love false or true)
I would like to very much apologise for the trouble that I have caused my family, my classmates, my Professors, my Headmistress, and my Lord Protector.
I would especially like to apologise to the people who were petrified.
And to Draco, because of Dennis.
None of it was my idea and I never wanted any of it to happen, and I'm very sorry that it did happen.
I would have stopped it if I could, but I didn't know how and
I wasn't always myself.
But I knew something was wrong and I never told anyone, and I was very bad and naughty to keep secrets.
My Daddy is a specialist in cursed objects and my Mummy is an Auror and I should have known not to play about with a book that could think for itself.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a nice day and a nice summer.

gone and back

Monday, 1 March 2010 15:48
alt_hydra: (murmur a little sadly)
Some people have asked me where Tully is so I suppose I should just tell.
He's been sick, but I don't know with what, I just knew that he wasn't feeling very good.
I noticed it a few week ago, right after Draco's mudblood was killed.
I took him to Professor Brutka who said he didn't seem that sick and then he reminded me that animals can't get the epidemic.
But then he said he could keep Tully for observation for a little while if it would make me feel better, so I said yes please, Sir, and that's what he did.
Only today Tully was back in his hutch by my bed and Professor Brutka left a note saying that Tully was doing well and to just make sure he gets plenty of water.
So I think that means Tully is all better now.
That's good, right?
I have to say, though, that Tina was a lot less work and worry.
The older students are talking about electives today.
I wish I could take electives next year, I'm certain I'd be very good at Care of Magical Creatures by now.
And very good at Dark Arts too, of course.
I don't know if I'd be allowed to take Divination, though.
There seems to be a lot of birthdays this time of year, haven't you noticed?
alt_hydra: (take down this book and slowly read)
The castle's very different when there aren't many people in it.
It's quieter and bigger than ever, and the common room stays tidier for longer.
Instead of eating at the Slytherin table, everyone eats in the same place, one long table in the centre of the room, but still a bit spread out, with Slytherins and Ravenclaws and the other houses on their own sides, but talking more to each other than they usually would at mealtime.
The food seems better, too, I wonder if that's because there are fewer people for the elves to cook for?
A lot of the other children who've stayed behind are people I don't know.
I saw a ginger haired boy, though, he must've have been a Weasley, and then I thought I saw another one, too, but I didn't see all of them.
I wonder why some would stay at the castle and not the others?
Maybe they were ordered to stay, but I wonder why.
Just wondering, not asking.
It was nice to read about the Malfoy party, it was always the best part of the year.
Last year there was a gingerbread house big enough to walk in, and a fountain of hot cocoa to drink from.
I wonder how hard it is to make a fountain of hot cocoa?
I wouldn't mind trying.
Harry, did you notice how many owls have come for Draco?
He hasn't opened any of the parcels yet, though, I'm not sure that he wants to.
Maybe if we said we would help him, he'd open them?
Because it still doesn't feel like Christmas yet at all, and there's only a few days left to feel it.

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