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Saturday, 24 May 2014 17:51
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It's been a long week, but I'm glad it's over. It was nice to get to Hogsmeade today. It almost didn't rain, even.

You all might as well know that I cheated on any of the OWL exams where I was able. This didn't work for some of the written parts, but for spell-casting... well, all I did was try to get a feel for what the Examiner was looking for, or who they'd been most impressed by so far, and then I did my best to top it.

I did study, and quite a lot, actually. I know I will need to be skilled at these things to be the best witch I can be, after all, but I don't see why I should care about giving the Examiners a fair representation of what I can do, when we're more or less encouraged to not play fair at every turn.

So in that regard, it was a fair representation of what I can do.
alt_hydra: (her age became)
Don't worry, I've no plans to tell anyone about your secret copy of Pure Victory.

But if you really want to learn to occlude, you need to work with a willing legilimens. It's the only way to know if you're getting anywhere.

From,
Hydra
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I can finish now. Some of these people aren't in the challenge anymore, but I supposed it might still be useful to know. I'll start with the people who are still in, though.

When I spoke with each person, the conversation was short. I made ordinary chit-chat but then asked how they were feeling now that we were coming to the end of the competition. And then I asked, in a confiding way, if they felt they had any secrets that made them ineligible for the council. I got some funny looks for that, I think some of them knew what I was trying to do. But it worked, for the most part.

Blaise Zabini
He never really thought much about being on the council, but now that he's being challenged he won't run away from it. He doesn't want to pretend to be something he's not, though, and only wants to be selected for his own qualifications. So he's been careful not to misrepresent his abilities, and to look no more willing to put his neck on the line than he actually is. The image he has of himself is loyal but not zealous, and with a big bank account and the proper world view. If the council doesn't want that he's fine fading into the sidelines where he can be comfortable. Oh, and married to Daphne. She was in a wedding veil.

Zach Smith
It's odd, but his inner thoughts were precisely the same as what came out of his mouth, only his head was a split-second ahead. He just said he fine but busy, and that of course he didn't have any secrets. Why, had I heard something?

Alfred Montague
He was thinking about his brother, and how he wants to keep up and hold his own. There's both competition and pride there, a desire to meet family expectation. He sees his brother as a rising star in the MLE and would hate to be thought of as any less important. He didn't seem to be thinking about the council directly, it seemed more abstract, just an extension of his brother's success. Oh, and he also thought about me and Justin. He's worried that it was a bad idea to cross us, but then again, he figures it must have impressed the sponsors so he isn't opposed to doing it in the future if he has to.

When he started to walk away from me I said to him "you're right, though. It was a bad idea."

Richard Vaisey
Richard was worried about Lizzie and something happening to her. He kept thinking about a baby, so he's worried about that, too. The idea of being on the council is appealing in its way, but he just wasn't expecting it now, and always assumed it would be something he would get a choice about, maybe later in life when he was more settled in. He isn't sure he's ruthless enough to be on the council, but he thinks he has other qualities that they might find useful. But then he was thinking about Lizzie again, and really, it seems like it's a massive distraction for him. Maybe now that she's been dropped by Crispin he'll be more competitive, though.

Padma Patil
You already know she was thinking about Dean. When I asked if she had any secrets, though, I saw the real Pure Victory book in her hands, so she must own it and think that it's wrong to.

Lares Tamblyn
He kept thinking about Padma, which was annoying. I think he had just seen her. Anyway, he cares about her but thinks she's childish and too hung up on her parents' old-fashioned ideas. Also, he wishes she'd stop pushing herself long enough to think about her own wants. He thinks he might like boys as well as girls, so now that Seamus is out as gay he wonders if he and Padma might be able to give it a go again.

Teddy Nott
Teddy was hard. He answered my questions but was thinking about other things, mostly. Like how convenient it is that I'm suddenly dating Harry. There was jealousy there, too. And he also had one of those grotesque images of vivisected cats. This time there were two, one was a brownish colour, and the other a silvery-grey. The last time he thought of a cat it was meant to be Hermione, but I don't know what these are. Jack is a grey cat, but this one didn't look like Jack. But before I could really get a good look at it he was thinking about his Father, yelling and cursing him to do better.

Seamus Finnigan
Was thinking about his mother's death. Her murder. Which I knew about but it was strange to see it, with Uncle Lucius there, and Professor Dolohov, and so many others. He didn't think about it for long and for that I'm glad. He thought about Mr Rosier next, and a fishing trip he took with him last Spring, and then that turned into a very old memory of another little boy - a relative, I think - making fun of Seamus for having a muggle father. He knows his real father is probably still alive and living in Ireland. I think those images might mean that he thinks of Mr Rosier as his real father. He wants to stay in the boat with him.

Lizzie Stevens
She doesn't really want to be a council member. She thinks it's unbecoming work for a woman, except maybe someone like me. She also thinks it's not proper for a mother, unless that mother is someone like my mother. She really doesn't want to seem disloyal, and yet she's still upset about what happened to Sam and is angry that the council challenge got her hurt.

Linus Moon
Moon cheated at gobstones once, but he doesn't think that makes him unworthy for the council. Mostly, though, he just wants to make Professor Dolohov happy and he takes all his cues from him. He also seems to have thought this competition was all for the junior council members amusement until Professor Dolohov made it clear to him that they weren't just having a lark.

Katie Bell
She's upset that as soon as Harry broke up with her, she was given a task that involved seducing a council member. She's not sorry she did it, though, and is even strangely happy that she was able to do it and not make a complete fool of herself in the process. Cal Pummel also sent her flowers and they've been writing to each other. But she really doesn't want to be shoved around by anyone, anymore.

Heph Bobolis
He's proud of his family, and of his own skill, but he isn't sure that he rises to the level of council member. Some of the challenges made him uncomfortable, like the one where he had to denounce his uncle. Also, he really wishes he could find a girlfriend who will have a cuddle with him. Maybe even a shag.

Greg and Vince
They were thinking about lunch. Really. Greg wanted sandwiches and Vince was hoping for soup. And Greg's bum had an itch that was distracting him.

Cormac McLaggen
I've saved him for last because he's the one who caught me by surprise. First, he could occlude. Not completely, but I could feel him trying and it did make things patchy. He thought he was doing it well enough, though, and I let him believe that.

He works for Dogstar. Or he's connected to them somehow. But we all know that he's horrid, too. So what do we do now that we know?
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I've spent the last two days tracking down all the candidates so that I can legilimise them. I will write more about that later, but for now..

Yesterday, I talked to Dean Thomas. It was short, he's not particularly friendly. But I picked up from him that he is determined to succeed in the contest, no matter what it will cost him. I saw two images in succession, first - a camp. It wasn't nice. The second was of the Lord Protector. Both images made him feel disgust.

And then, today I spoke with Padma. She thinks she can occlude but she's not very good. I got a few things from her but right now what matters is that she was thinking about Dean. She's worried he's done something massively stupid in response to a fake challenge she gave him. Her challenge was to give him a challenge, I think. Maybe to hurt his standing.

Is this of any use?
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I'm sorry I'm only just now writing about this, only none of it seemed really useful to the Order. If it were, I would have told everyone straight away, of course. But I already did share a little at Tea Appreciation, so most of you know that I spent much of hols going to MLE with Mummy. I was hoping to learn something top secret, of course, but nothing like that happened. She was busy a great deal of the time and then I would just end up reading in her office. I thought about having a snoop around, but that would be a bad idea. She's not the sort to leave anything incriminating out, and I'm sure she has all varieties of monitoring devices, too.

What I did learn, which might be useful (if obvious), is that a lot of people who work for MLE aren't very happy. Much of the time they're afraid, but often they assume that since everyone else seems fine, they shouldn't show it or talk about it. And of course, most of them don't like Mummy. That doesn't bother her. I think she likes it, even.

She wanted to test my legilimency skills, so she would summon some lower-level worker to her office and ask me what he was thinking. We tried different methods, like having me look into the person's eyes, or having them turn their back to me. I didn't notice a very big difference between the two. What was interesting was that we sometimes saw different things. Or, more rightly, Mummy tended to pick up on one strong, singular image and thought, while I would pick up on several at once. Mummy said this is because I'm inexperienced, and that with more practice I will learn to filter through the "insignificant noise" and get to the truth of a person's mind.

I asked her how you could be sure of the truth of a person's mind. A person's mind has an imagination in it, after all, and if I've had a fantasy about stealing from a shop, that doesn't mean I've actually stolen from a shop. Sometimes we also have hateful, fleeting thoughts, too, that we don't really mean.

Mummy insisted that there was always a truth, that you just had to learn how to pull it out of a person.

I just don't know if it's that simple. But if it is, I suppose I need to learn. How to get to the truth of a person's mind, I mean.
alt_hydra: (take down this book and slowly read)
I received a package from my mother this morning. It was a surprise to me, because she never sends me anything, not really. It was a book on field legilimency and interrogation techniques, which is I suppose her way of saying that I ought to be practising. Maybe Lana Sandoval-Pennifold told her that I legilimised Vince and Greg for one of the challenges, or perhaps she just thought to send it on her own. I'm not sure. There wasn't a letter included.

Anyway, the book is interesting, and confirms much of what I always suspected about Mummy. From a very young age I noticed how, when she had conversations with others, Mummy would bring up certain subjects out of the blue. A table of people might be discussing fashion, or theatre, and Mummy would suddenly go quite off topic, mentioning the name of a dissenter that MLE was questioning, or something else related to the Protectorate and loyalty.

Well, it turns out that this is actually a subtle interrogation technique known as "poaching." The theory behind it is that you get someone comfortable and talking about everyday things, then you introduce "trigger words" when they least expect it. In most cases, the subject will not have time to occlude and will have an immediate thought related to the "trigger word," without being able to stop from doing so.

To give an example of how it might work, imagine that you're talking with someone about school-work and they unexpectedly mention that they just read the newly released, proper version of Pure Victory. They didn't even ask you a question, you see, so you're not necessarily on guard. And before you could verbalise your response, you might think the word "rubbish," or even visualise yourself reading the original Pure Victory and enjoying it very much. So without even asking you a question, the legilimens who is poaching you has a sense of how the topic of Pure Victory makes you feel.

I know it sounds scary, being "poached," but there are probably only two people who can do it. Voldemort and my mother. And maybe me, if I can practise it. I would like other people to practise on besides Justin, so if anyone trusts me and would like to volunteer, please let me know.

Fortunately, most of you will never have to make polite chit-chat with either Voldemort or my mother, but for those of you who do or will, working with me might be a good way to practise occluding, too.
alt_hydra: (and loved the sorrows)
My Mother knows that I'm a legilimens.

I suppose the good news is that she thinks I've only just now discovered that I am one, but the other bad news is that it's my own fault that she knows. I had to tell her because I accidentally legilimized Auntie Narcissa when we were out shopping yesterday. You see, I thought she was speaking out loud to me, and since I haven't had something like that happen to me in a while, I responded to her.

Well, Auntie Narcissa started asking me how long I've been hearing people's thoughts like that, and I lied and said it had only happened a few times with people I'm close with, like Remy and Justin. I did not tell her that Mummy didn't know, but of course I knew Aunt Narcissa would probably bring it up with her eventually, so I pretended to be a little sad and embarrassed that my gift was so weak and pitiful. I hoped she would gather that I didn't want to talk about it, but maybe that was a bad thing to hope for, since it might have been the reason why she brought it up with Mummy.

Maybe I should have just told her I was keeping it a secret from Mummy until I was really, really good, because I wanted to impress her, and make her so proud that she'd let me marrybe nice to me. Auntie Narcissa might have agreed to keep it a secret, too. She's always tried to help me when things get difficult with Mummy.

I suppose that's why it's easy for me to slip up around her. She's always felt safe.

Anyway, while I was getting ready for bed last night, a Malfoy house elf popped over and gave me a note from Auntie, warning me that Mummy would be coming to ask me about my legilmency. I decided that I would ask Mummy about it, first, so she would think I had only just figured out what was happening to me. I'm not entirely sure she believed me - it can be hard to tell, with her - but she seemed to accept it.

Trouble is, now she's very excited to discover how skilled I am, and says that I might finally "be useful." She wants me to work with Auror Penderyn over the summer, and says that if I prove skilled enough, she might want to take over my training herself!

I wish there were some way to make her think I was a bad legilimens, but I don't think that any such thing exists. They're so uncommon to begin with, especially those who have it manifest on its own.

I'm sorry to let you all down. I wanted to use my legilimency to help us, not her.

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