these are the words i found

[alt_hydra]

I would like to very much apologise for the trouble that I have caused my family, my classmates, my Professors, my Headmistress, and my Lord Protector.
I would especially like to apologise to the people who were petrified.
And to Draco, because of Dennis.
None of it was my idea and I never wanted any of it to happen, and I'm very sorry that it did happen.
I would have stopped it if I could, but I didn't know how and
I wasn't always myself.
But I knew something was wrong and I never told anyone, and I was very bad and naughty to keep secrets.
My Daddy is a specialist in cursed objects and my Mummy is an Auror and I should have known not to play about with a book that could think for itself.
Thank you for reading and I hope that you have a nice day and a nice summer.

Comments

[alt_rodolphus]

See Duckie? That wasn't so dreadful, was it?

[alt_hydra]

Will it be good enough, do you think?

From,
Hydra

[alt_rodolphus]

I hope so.

[alt_pansy]

I know what it's like to feel like you've got something controlling you and you can't make it stop. I know it's not nearly the same as what you went through, but I guess I sort of know what it's like, a little.

So if you ever want to talk about it, or whatever, just let me know.

And I'm sorry you had to go through that. And about Tully.

And I don't blame you for not knowing what to do.

And I'm still your friend. You know that, right?

[alt_padma]

So it was a thinking book? With a spirit trapped inside it, or what?

Capper said she thought it was the ghost of Morgana la Fay but I think she was trying to have the firsties on.

[alt_padma]

Oh, and I'm really sorry about your rabbit, Hydra.

I mean, anyone with any sense could tell you weren't in control over yourself if that evil spirit made you do that.

[alt_hydra]

Why, what happened to you?
I don't know if I should talk about it, it might upset people, so I would rather not.
Thank you for still being my friend, though.

From,
Hydra

[alt_hydra]

It was more than just a spirit.
More than what you're probably thinking of, anyway.
But it wasn't Morgana la Fay, Capper doesn't know anything.

From,
Hydra

[alt_sally_anne]

Hydra, I'm so sorry about your rabbit. I'm not angry at you. I don't think anyone's angry at you.

I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good

[alt_sally_anne]

If she had someone like Mrs Weasley as a mum instead of Bellatrix Lestrange maybe she'd have said something.

If she'd gotten to go HOME at Christmas instead of being stuck at school with Harry and Draco because her parents like to suck up to the Lord Protector, maybe she'd have at least told her father.

Poor Hydra. She tried to give me her rabbit for my birthday and I didn't understand why and said no. I think she was trying to protect it, because she knew the spirit possessing her might do something dreadful to it.

[alt_hydra]

Some people might be.
I'm glad you're not.

From,
Hydra

[alt_pansy]

There was a doll I found first year. So you weren't here for it. And it was supposed to be charmed to give people good dreams.

But she was broken -- she just had her head, her body was missing. And because she was broken, the spell went all wrong, and I had a lot of really weird dreams. And I started having weird thoughts too, not just at night, but during the day sometimes, and then I started saying those thoughts out loud, and I got in trouble for them. And Marie would whisper in my head and have conversations with me, for hours sometimes, especially at night. And it was sort of nice, even though she wasn't supposed to work like that, and even though sometimes she didn't always say the best sorts of things.

I miss her a lot sometimes.

[alt_hydra]

I miss
Oh, that sounds like what the book did sometimes.
Did Marie make you do anything besides saying things out loud?

From,
Hydra

Re: I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good

[alt_ron]

I don't actually know what my mum would have done. If it'd been me instead of Hydra it happened to, I'd probably have got a Howler. And it would have said, 'RONALD WEASLEY. DON'T YOU KNOW HOW FRIGHTENED YOU MADE ME? ALL THESE MONTHS WE WORRIED YOU MIGHT BE THE NEXT ONE KILLED, AND NOW IT TURNS OUT YOU WERE THE ONE RESPONSIBLE? AND DON'T TRY TO TELL ME IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT THAT THING POSSESSED YOU! YOUR FATHER HAS TOLD YOU AND TOLD YOU FROM THE TIME YOU WERE SMALL THAT YOU SHOULD NEVER NEVER NEVER TRUST ANY MAGICAL THING IF YOU CAN'T TELL WHERE IT KEEPS ITS BRAINS.'

Now, if it'd been Ginny, I reckon Mum would have cried, and Ginny'd have cried, and Mum would have told her she'd been so worried, and then Mum would've said she's just counting the days until we can all come home and she can see that Ginny's all right and getting enough sleep and eating the right things. And that would've been that.

Actually, the big difference is if it'd been one of us, Mum and Dad wouldn't have been able to come here to find out what was being done.

[alt_pansy]

Just sleepwalk. And I wrote some funny things in my journal too. You can probably go back and read through them -- if you want, I can show you where they are.

[alt_hydra]

Well, maybe, just not right now, though.

From,
Hydra

[alt_pansy]

Okay. If you ever want to, just let me know.

I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good

[alt_terry]

Wish I could comment to her. I know I mustn't though, not where her mum or Mr Malfoy are reading. If I did, they'd probably be outraged: as if a mudblood ever has a right to forgive a pureblood for anything! Like I was pretending to be all superior to her somehow or something.

Master would kill me for daring to even think such a thing, if he ever caught me alone.

Re: I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good

[alt_lee]

Maybe you could say something to her, if you see her alone sometime.

Re: I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good

[alt_terry]

That's an idea. Maybe.

[alt_bellatrix]

Hydra, you did not properly thank Harry for saving your life.

[alt_hydra]

Oh, I should have done that, thank you for reminding me, Mummy.

Harry, thank you for what you did, I'll never forget it for the rest of my life.

From,
Hydra

Re: I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good

[alt_neville]

Know what you mean.

I'd like to tell her that it isn't 'naughty,' exactly, to keep secrets. Well, you shouldn't keep secret like this one, of course. But if she ever wants to have a life or a even a thought to call her own, she'll need to. Specially with a mum like hers. It's dead sensible.

But yeah, that's not the sort of thing you can put in the journals for other people to read.

[alt_lana]

I admire you for writing this. It's a very brave and proper thing to do.

And I want you to know that I'm very glad that you are safe and well. We were all very worried for you yesterday, and we were so relieved when we heard that Marvolo had found you and that none of you came to any harm.

[alt_hydra]

Thank you, Miss.
I'm sorry that I worried you and the others and I do promise to try to not do it again.

From,
Hydra

[alt_harry]

You're welcome I guess. I mean of course. I'm really sorry we didn't figure it out sooner.