The funny thing is that I can write that and not feel particularly bothered by it. I supposed that's what's changed. It's not as if I don't feel emotions anymore or anything like that, but I do experience them differently. They seem more abstract, or distant somehow. Unless something makes me cross, and then I seem to feel it more keenly.
I think that kind of dark magic - you use it to do awful things, so you're less affected by them as a result.
I still feel as if I'm not quite explaining it right.
And I suppose now I'm thinking about the other consequences that there might be, in the future.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
2015-08-20 23:54 (UTC)Sorry, that's morbid.
The funny thing is that I can write that and not feel particularly bothered by it. I supposed that's what's changed. It's not as if I don't feel emotions anymore or anything like that, but I do experience them differently. They seem more abstract, or distant somehow. Unless something makes me cross, and then I seem to feel it more keenly.
I think that kind of dark magic - you use it to do awful things, so you're less affected by them as a result.
I still feel as if I'm not quite explaining it right.
And I suppose now I'm thinking about the other consequences that there might be, in the future.