I think it is protective, in a way. It makes it easier to do really powerful, destructive magic. And when there's something that must be done, well - there it is.
I've thought about the baby, though. The one we lost. I didn't - I never really thought about it so much before. Maybe I wasn't letting myself. And now I wonder if I'll ever be able to have one, because of what I've done.
I didn't think I wanted kids. I'm still not sure that I do. But choosing not to seems different than not being able to.
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2015-08-21 00:23 (UTC)I've thought about the baby, though. The one we lost. I didn't - I never really thought about it so much before. Maybe I wasn't letting myself. And now I wonder if I'll ever be able to have one, because of what I've done.
I didn't think I wanted kids. I'm still not sure that I do. But choosing not to seems different than not being able to.