Yes, I thought I'd go through everything tonight. He left a will, Remus witnessed it for him. We'll have to go to Grimmauld for some of the items.
About supper. Let's see what Hydra wants to do. I don't necessarily want to say goodbye to everyone so soon, but I'm not sure I'm in the mood for a huge party, and when we got to the Hall with little Charlotte it looked like that's what's on here. I'm sure they'll drink a toast to Colin and all the others, but other than that it does look like a merry gathering. I'm looking forward to merry but - not tonight. Not quite yet.
I don't know if I would have accepted before everything that happened last night, but now? I just can't imagine it. Arista Selwyn's so excited about starting at Hogwarts and it's wonderful to see, but that got me to thinking. I have no idea what it was like to be a student here. I just can't envision how I would teach when any sort of formal education wasn't my experience in the slightest.
Besides, there's too many other things to do, now, and I thought about what you said, how it should be for me, and no one else. And one thing I do know about teaching is that it's never about the teacher, it should be about the student.
Mostly I think I just want to take a break and rest for about a month! Though probably a week is more realistic.
I've also been thinking about the Manor. Sirius said that Grimmauld was horrid for him at first, because round every corner there was some sort of unhappy memory. But that gradually, over time, he and Tonks and Remus, Ellie, Bea, and then you and I, filled it with other memories. We transformed the house by living in it--those were his words, exactly--that we transformed it--and I think, maybe, we could do the same with the Manor. Maybe we're thinking about it all wrong, and keeping it sterile like a museum or mausoleum isn't really the way to change how we perceive it.
Or maybe there are some places that we do need to preserve as a reminder of the past, the mistakes and the pitfalls and the ways people can be horrible to one another.
I don't know. But I know it doesn't seem nearly as awful as I thought it would be, at first. And besides, I know that it doesn't really matter where we stay, as long as we're together.
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Re: Private Message to Draco
2015-08-30 20:49 (UTC)About supper. Let's see what Hydra wants to do. I don't necessarily want to say goodbye to everyone so soon, but I'm not sure I'm in the mood for a huge party, and when we got to the Hall with little Charlotte it looked like that's what's on here. I'm sure they'll drink a toast to Colin and all the others, but other than that it does look like a merry gathering. I'm looking forward to merry but - not tonight. Not quite yet.
I don't know if I would have accepted before everything that happened last night, but now? I just can't imagine it. Arista Selwyn's so excited about starting at Hogwarts and it's wonderful to see, but that got me to thinking. I have no idea what it was like to be a student here. I just can't envision how I would teach when any sort of formal education wasn't my experience in the slightest.
Besides, there's too many other things to do, now, and I thought about what you said, how it should be for me, and no one else. And one thing I do know about teaching is that it's never about the teacher, it should be about the student.
Mostly I think I just want to take a break and rest for about a month! Though probably a week is more realistic.
I've also been thinking about the Manor. Sirius said that Grimmauld was horrid for him at first, because round every corner there was some sort of unhappy memory. But that gradually, over time, he and Tonks and Remus, Ellie, Bea, and then you and I, filled it with other memories. We transformed the house by living in it--those were his words, exactly--that we transformed it--and I think, maybe, we could do the same with the Manor. Maybe we're thinking about it all wrong, and keeping it sterile like a museum or mausoleum isn't really the way to change how we perceive it.
Or maybe there are some places that we do need to preserve as a reminder of the past, the mistakes and the pitfalls and the ways people can be horrible to one another.
I don't know. But I know it doesn't seem nearly as awful as I thought it would be, at first. And besides, I know that it doesn't really matter where we stay, as long as we're together.