I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good - Private Message to Pansy

[alt_hydra]

I was trying to come up with a reason to post publicly, and then write you a private message, but then I remembered the lock. I don't know what I was thinking - only that Madam Umbridge must have me feeling more anxious than usual.

But, Hello. I wanted to ask you - that is, I have a bit of a personal question. If you're not comfortable answering, then you needn't do so. I will understand completely. But you're the only older student I'm friends with who also has had a long-term boyfriend, you see. So...

Where do you and Draco go when you want to be alone? And what do you do to ensure that you don't get caught? Justin and I have a stairwell that no one knows about. I learned about it my first year, from someone who assured me that it was a place in the castle that everyone has forgot about. And so far, no one has stumbled upon us. But it is a little bit cramped, and it doesn't really feel safe enough for being really, really alone. If you see what I mean.

The only idea we've had is to have him sneak me into his dorm room, somehow, maybe on a Hogsmeade day when everyone's gone. But then he'll have to get me through the Hufflepuff common room unnoticed, and that seems unlikely.

So I'm trying to find out where other students go for complete privacy, but no one really says. It makes sense, since they don't want to get caught. Or have their spaces stolen by some other couple.

Again, I'm sorry for the personal questions. But if you have any ideas to share, I would welcome them.

From,
Hydra

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[alt_pansy]

I'm sorry I haven't got back to you sooner.

Sometimes Draco and I go up in the Astronomy tower to snog a bit or look at the stars, because I know when Professor Siz tends to have it open, and there are some corners that are a little more out of the way that people don't tend to be. We tried to use the secret room once, but it didn't work when it was just the two of us. And there's that room that Regulus showed you and me, that one time we had tea together. That tends to be out of the way. We play guitar there when we don't want to bother anyone. And we've used an imperturbable charm on empty classrooms or the Potions storeroom when we want privacy so that we can properly talk, or just be alone for a bit.

But we don't

Well, we don't tend to need to be really, really alone.

Not that I don't want I wish sometimes

I do know that sneaking through someone else's common room is probably a really bad idea, though.

[alt_pansy]

Harry's invisibility cloak might be a way to get through the common room, but your going into his dormitory room might set off alarms or something, I honestly don't know.

And getting caught in a staircase is probably not as bad as getting caught in a boy's bedroom.

[alt_hydra]

Oh, I see.

Yes, I'm not sure that any of those spots would be good for having complete privacy.

I hope you know that I wasn't assuming anything about you (or Draco) because of anything you did, or anything that I heard about you. It was just something that occurred to me as a possibility. That you two might have know of a spot. But that's all right that you don't.

Harry's got an invisibility cloak? I mean, I suppose I've heard him mention it, but it makes you really, truly invisible?

[alt_pansy]

Oh, it's fine. I mean, we do go off on our own often enough, and we have been dating for over a year now. So it's not like we haven't had the chance.

Honestly, I wish sometimes that Professor Dolohov had never taught us those meditating exercises. Because it seems like whenever we're together and he

you know

he'll just stop all of a sudden and go off to meditate. It's not like he isn't enjoying himself. I mean, that part's fairly obvious, but he doesn't want to be improper or forward or take advantage, when honestly, I wouldn't mind. At all. And whenever I try to show him that I don't mind, he'll break off and claim he needs to get himself under control. Especially lately. And I was hoping to have some time alone during hols, to... you know... not meditate, but with Mr Weasley dying like that it felt wrong somehow, and we haven't been able to really spend time together alone since.

Sorry. It's just a bit... frustrating sometimes.

And yeah, Harry's got a brilliant cloak. I'm not sure he'd let you borrow it, but if you're willing to take that big a risk, I guess it wouldn't hurt to ask?

[alt_hydra]

Whenever you're together and he starts to... enjoy himself? Is that what you mean?

I'm not sure what to think. I mean, Justin's never ever pushed me to do anything I didn't want to do, but when I've made it clear that I wouldn't mind taking things further, he seemed really happy about it. Sometimes he'll say "are you sure?" but he's never said "oh no, we shouldn't."

Have you told Draco that you want to be "improper?"

It's odd, I didn't really figure him for being especially old-fashioned, which is probably obvious now, seeing as I've brought the topic up with you.

[alt_pansy]

Yes.

And I think I might have to. Tell him, I mean.

I know that tradition is important to him, of course, but I think it's more than that. I think it's more about respect, and the way he treats me is his way of showing me he truly cares about me and loves me. Because his parents

Anyways. I suppose I'll just have to tell him that there are all sorts of other ways of being respectful, and that if I want very much to be taken advantage of, it's really not taking advantage at all.

I'm sorry I couldn't be more helpful.

[alt_hydra]

If that's what you want, then I hope you can convince him. If I can be of any help, or Justin -

No, never mind, Draco would hate that. I'll never let him know you said a word to me about it, don't worry!

And I'll think about the cloak. It feels a bit wrong to ask to borrow it for that sort of thing, but it would be very safe.