Private message to Barty
Wednesday, 5 August 2015 09:36![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alt_hydraWere the proof-of-life charms his idea, or yours? Perhaps you came up with it together?
I don't know much about normal, healthy parent-child relationships, but from what I've gathered it's not unusual for a child to think of their parent as invincible. They are larger than life and can never die. The parent, though, is much more aware of mortality and vulnerability and watches over their offspring with absolute vigilance.
I know you didn't think Antonin was invincible, but I think he was more accustomed to being worried about you than the reverse. Just imagine that stretch of time in Ireland that you almost didn't return from.
What did you expect him to do, if you hadn't survived?
I'm just very curious to know what you two had planned if one of you died before the other. Because I don't think it likely included killing sprees.
Maybe the proof-of-life charms weren't about plans. Maybe they were just motivation to stay alive, for each other.
I told one of my colleagues that there was something Romantic about your relationship with Antonin. I'm not sure he really understood what I meant by that. But what you're doing has the weight of a dramatic aria or poem - the ultimate expression of your rage and torment. It's the only medium you've dedicated your life to, though it would have been better for everyone if you'd been a painter, or something, instead.
I don't know much about normal, healthy parent-child relationships, but from what I've gathered it's not unusual for a child to think of their parent as invincible. They are larger than life and can never die. The parent, though, is much more aware of mortality and vulnerability and watches over their offspring with absolute vigilance.
I know you didn't think Antonin was invincible, but I think he was more accustomed to being worried about you than the reverse. Just imagine that stretch of time in Ireland that you almost didn't return from.
What did you expect him to do, if you hadn't survived?
I'm just very curious to know what you two had planned if one of you died before the other. Because I don't think it likely included killing sprees.
Maybe the proof-of-life charms weren't about plans. Maybe they were just motivation to stay alive, for each other.
I told one of my colleagues that there was something Romantic about your relationship with Antonin. I'm not sure he really understood what I meant by that. But what you're doing has the weight of a dramatic aria or poem - the ultimate expression of your rage and torment. It's the only medium you've dedicated your life to, though it would have been better for everyone if you'd been a painter, or something, instead.
