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Sunday, 20 April 2014 15:28I've just seen Draco. He's going to bring Jack over to Justin... Well, that's not why I saw him, we've just had supper at Nanella's. It's really more duty than celebration, and no one lingers for long after the table is cleared.
I - I'm not sure how to say this, because for all I know, you may not want to talk to anyone at all. Thats for you to decide. But then again, you can't know who to talk to unless someone makes it clear that they're willing to listen. And thats what you did for me, after Justin and I broke up. Which seems so long ago and yet like it just happened, and I still don't know what I can say about it. What is there to say? We've made our decision and that's the end of it. But even though I didn't feel like talking, I appreciated it when you said that you'd listen, if I needed someone.
The thing is, Draco has been occluding around me for ages. I could feel it, at first, but now he's gotten better and I couldn't really tell, but I assumed that he was. For practice. I had no idea he was actually hiding something.
And today, even though he didn't really ask me to do anything, as soon as we were alone at St. James to get Jack, I could feel him drawing me in, intentionally, so I looked. And I saw.
If I was surprised, well, I can only imagine how you must have felt.
He didn't want to talk about it, but he thought you might need someone. He might be right, he might be wrong. I don't know. But here I am, if you do.
I - I'm not sure how to say this, because for all I know, you may not want to talk to anyone at all. Thats for you to decide. But then again, you can't know who to talk to unless someone makes it clear that they're willing to listen. And thats what you did for me, after Justin and I broke up. Which seems so long ago and yet like it just happened, and I still don't know what I can say about it. What is there to say? We've made our decision and that's the end of it. But even though I didn't feel like talking, I appreciated it when you said that you'd listen, if I needed someone.
The thing is, Draco has been occluding around me for ages. I could feel it, at first, but now he's gotten better and I couldn't really tell, but I assumed that he was. For practice. I had no idea he was actually hiding something.
And today, even though he didn't really ask me to do anything, as soon as we were alone at St. James to get Jack, I could feel him drawing me in, intentionally, so I looked. And I saw.
If I was surprised, well, I can only imagine how you must have felt.
He didn't want to talk about it, but he thought you might need someone. He might be right, he might be wrong. I don't know. But here I am, if you do.
